Some days I'm so distracted by all the amazing and good gifts that I forget...
Some days, I start to "believe my own press" and throw any measure of humility out the window...
Some days, we get bad news...
Some days if feels like following God leads to undesirable consequences that I don't want to bear...
Some days the words and actions of others discourage me...
Some days my own words and actions discourage me...
Some days, life is just hard...
...but God is good.
And that's where this missionary is right now... today...
Choosing to believe that I have an infinite number of reasons to be grateful and intentionally numbering them throughout this day.
Even when I don't want to and really don't feel like it.
Is that hypocrisy? A lack of transparent authenticity in failing to recognize the person, warts and all, that God created me to be by not, as so many say, wallowing in that gut level, feeling response?
Or is it obedience?
...through him, then, we may offer up a sacrifice of praise always to God,
that is, the fruit of lips, giving thanks to His name;
(Hebrews 13.15, YLT)
Or is it recognizing that my perspective is not infallible?
Therefore let us be grateful for receiving a kingdom that cannot be shaken,
and thus let us offer to God acceptable worship,
with reverence and awe,
for our God is a consuming fire.
(Hebrews 12.28-29, ESV)
I am grateful to the one who has strengthened me,
Christ Jesus our Lord,
because he considered me
faithful in putting me into ministry,
I was formerly...
(1 Timothy 1.12-13a, NET)